It’s very emotional…
So, if you think your hormones are going to go back to
normal quickly, they aren’t. I cry at the stupidest of things. My boyfriend
brought me a bacon and egg sandwich up to bed after a super rough night with
Thomas (he ensured Thomas was OK first, obviously and took him downstairs,
changed the nappy etc) and then brought me breakfast in bed.
There was even a flower in a little vase on my plate and a
cup of tea. I was crying lots and he said “Hayley what’s wrong? What are you
crying for? Is the egg cooked enough for you?” and my response behind all the
tears was “I don’t know… *sniff* it’s perfect!”
I was also singing Ellie Goulding, Your Song to Thomas and
broke down in a flood of tears.
I try and cherish the moments with him and break down in
tears also.
When I look at him, I’m so filled with love, in my once cold
heart that I fill up with tears.
When I cannot tackle his trapped wind (Thank god for
infacol) I cry.
When something goes wrong, I cry!
When will it stop? I have no idea. I just try not to feel
too vulnerable. I have just had a baby and it is all very overwhelming!
I still cannot tolerate anyone. I don’t like the thought
that some people must think my baby is a doll! He isn’t a doll, he is my
creation.
But these are the thoughts that go through your head.
Love Hurts….
Aww I filled up when I read this... And also laughed when he thought you were crying at the quality of the egg haha.
ReplyDeleteThe older he gets the less people will think he's a doll and he'll become all yours in the next couple of months because novelty will wear off for some people but to you he'll always be your special boy xxx